May Oras Pa

               Kailangan na siguro at panahon na na bitawan ang mga bagay na nagpapabigat sa iyo, mga kaibigan na hindi maganda ang impluwensya, ang salita na laging lumalabas sa mga labi mo, ang pag iisip ng di kaaya aya at higit sa lahat ang mga bagay na dati mo naming hindi ginagawa pero mag mula ng na subukan mo eh di ka na bumitiw.

               Ang bagay na ito ang unti unting sumisira sayo buong pag katao mo, oo nag bibigay sa iyo ng kasiyahan ang mga bagay na ito pero hanggang kailan iikot ang mundo mo sa mga bagay na unti unting sisira sayo, hindi man sa ngayon pero darating ang araw na kahit ikaw iba na din ang tingin mo sa sarili mo.

               Gusto mo bang dumating sa punto na pag tingin mo sa salamin kahit ikaw pakiramdam mo malayong malayo na ang tunay na ikaw sa kung ano ka ngayon, ni hindi mo na alam kung sino ka na nga ba dati, subukan mong titigan ang sarili mo sa salamin at makikita mo ang tunay na ikaw, hindi mo mamamalyan unti-unting papatak ang mga luha mo, dahil may isang boses na nag sasabing “sana bumalik ka na sa dati, ang totoong ikaw”.

               Minsan ang munting tinig na ito ay hindi natin binibigyang pansin dahil sa nakatoon ang ating buong pandinig sa mga bagay na unti unting lumalason sa buo nating pag katao na magbibigay daan na lalo nating talikuran ang dating ikaw.

               “Hindi na nga siguro babalik ang dating ako, wala na akong magagawa eto na ako eh” napakasakit madining ang mga bagay na ito sa sarili mong mga labi, sana hindi dumating sa punto na masasabi sa iyo yan, nawa ay hindi.

               Pero pero pero bakit nga ba hindi mo subukang ibalik ang dati? Ang dating ikaw na simple at Masaya sa mga bagay na kung anong meron ka. Hindi mo kaya? Sinong may sabi? Inuulit ko KAYA mo maniwala ka, magtiwala ka sa sarili mo. Hindi nga siguro ganoon kadali na talikuran ang mga bagay na nakagawian mo. Pero pumili ka isang buhay na puno ng bigatin, lungkot at pagpapanggap sa harap ng tao o simpleng buhay na kung saan totoong kagalakan ang mararamdan  at syempre kapanatagan ng isip.

Mat 11:28  Magsiparito sa akin, kayong lahat na nangapapagal at nangabibigatang lubha, at kayo'y aking papagpapahingahin. 

Score Board

               Mam follow up ko lang po yung leave form ko for vacation, tapos na po ba? "Yes It’s done, by the way here’s your evaluation" (sabay abot sa akin yung evaluation ko for 1 year) di pa ako na kaka one year sa work ko pero binigyan na nya ako ng evaluation yun naman yung karaniwan dito maaga ang mga bagay bagay lalo na pagdating sa evaluation.

               Tumayo ako sa isang tabi at unti unting binabasa ang evaluation score ko, habang iniisa isa ko ang bawat category kung saan ako binibigyan ng puntos, aba aba aba maganda nga performance ko sa bawat category na nakikita ko, nakakatuwa kasi mukhang nakikita talaga kung ano ang mga ginagawa ko at na itutulong ko sa department namin.

               Ang sarap ng pakiramdam habang nakikito ko kung anong score ang ibinibigay sa akin.  Hanggang nakarating ako sa isang category hala bakit ganito score ko ditto ???? inilit ulit kong basahin ang category na ito (sa isip isip ko do I deserve this score) bakit mababa score ko dito “Willingness to help others” totoo ba itong nakikita ko na score?

               Medyo na kakadismaya at yung tipong parang hindi ko maisip o matanggap na yun lang ang score ko sa category na iyun.   Sabay nag salita si head nurse “ When you’re done just right your comments below” ok Mam.

               Matapos kong mabasa at pag munimunihan ang evaluation ko pinasa ko na din.

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               Morning shift was over I am from 7am-7pm , time to go home este sa accommodation pala naming (may accommodation flat kami provided by the Hospital free lahat yun food, water, electricity and even transportation (just a back ground info bro) ).

               Walang internet connection sa dahil nag uupgrade itong network provider namin.  Naisipan kong ipagpatuloy na basahin yung book na binabasa ko. ( The Five People You Meet In Heaven )

               Hala di maalis sa isip ko yung score ko dun sa evaluation, may mga tanong tulad ng, talaga? bakit? yun talaga yun? (move on zeb yan ang paulit ulit na iniisip isip ko).

               Napag isip isip ko sa bagay na nangyari.  Marahil nga sa paningin ng ibang tao tayo ay parang wala lang tayo o di kaya ay di napapansin.  Yan siguro ang basehan natin sa ibang bagay, kung ano lang ang nakikita at napapansin natin dun lang tayo bumabase sa kung anong literal na kikita ng mga mata natin.

               Bigla kong na realized sa paningin ng ibang tao madali silang humusga sa kung ano loan gang pamantayan nila.  Pero iba ang Panginoon alam niya kung ano ang kaya mong gawin at kung anong kaya mong ibagay ng buong kakayahan at lakas mo. Sabi nga sa salita niya “Your work is not in vain” “Blessed are those who are humble” itong mga salitang nagaling sa Panginoon ang nagbibigay ng pag-asa sa akin sa kung anong naranasan ko ngayonga araw na ito.

 “Willingness to help other” 3.5

And my score "Overall work performance 4". Praise be unto God.

Score 1-5 , 5 being the highest.

Graduation Day You made It!

Lot’s of  wishes, gratitude, greetings and even respects as they leave their own school proper. It’s Graduation Day!

Everyone knows that graduations or commencement exercises are very important in a person’s life. A graduation signals a person’s first step into the “real world” – a world where the true strength of character, skills as well as knowledge are put to the test.


This is why if you know someone who’s graduating, you must extend heartfelt graduation wishes that are sure to remind that person how to act, think and survive in the real world.

Most of our facebook timelines are full of pictures and greetings to those students who made it until today. I found this heartwarming article about Graduation as I was browsing my facebook account, let me share this to you all Graduates, not only for those Graduates but also to all of my reads.

TO THE GRADUATES ON THEIR LAST DAY AS STUDENTS AND FIRST DAY AS PROFESSIONALS

Photo Credits to http://russellraven.tumblr.com/

One day a teacher asked her students to list the names of the other students in the room on two sheets of paper, leaving a space between each name.

Then she told them to think of the nicest thing they could say about each of their classmates and write it down.

It took the remainder of the class period to finish their assignment and, as the students left the room, each one handed in the papers.

That Saturday, the teacher wrote down the name of each student on a separate sheet of paper, and listed what everyone else had said about that individual.

On Monday, she gave each student his or her list. Before long, the entire class was smiling.

"Really?" she heard whispered.

"I never knew that I meant anything to anyone!" and, "I didn't know others liked me so much." Were some of the comments.

No one ever mentioned those papers in class again. She never knew if they discussed them after class or with their parents, but it didn't matter. The exercise had accomplished its purpose. The students were happy with themselves and one another.

That group of students moved on. Several years later, one of the students was killed in Vietnam and his teacher attended the funeral of that special student. She had never seen a serviceman in a military coffin before. He looked so handsome, so mature.

The church was packed with his friends. One by one, those who loved him took a last walk by the coffin. The teacher was the last one to bless the coffin. As she stood there, one of the soldiers, who acted as pall bearer, came up to her.

"Were you Mark's math teacher?" he asked.

She nodded: "Yes."

Then he said: "Mark talked about you a lot."

After the funeral, most of Mark's former classmates went together to a luncheon. Mark's mother and father were there, obviously waiting to speak with his teacher.

"We want to show you something," his father said, taking a wallet out of his pocket.

"They found this on Mark when he was killed. We thought you might recognize it."

Opening the billfold, he carefully removed two worn pieces of notepaper that had obviously been taped, folded and refolded many times.

The teacher knew, without looking, that the papers were the ones on which she had listed all the good things each of Mark's classmates had said about him.

"Thank you so much for doing that," Mark's mother said. "As you can see, Mark treasured it."

All of Mark's former classmates started to gather around.

Charlie smiled rather sheepishly and said, "I still have my list. It's in the top drawer of my desk at home."

Chuck's wife said, "Chuck asked me to put his in our wedding album."

"I have mine too," Marilyn said. "It's in my diary."

Then Vickie, another classmate, reached into her pocketbook, took out her wallet and showed her worn and frazzled list to the group.

" I carry this with me at all times," Vickie said, and without batting an eyelash, she continued: "I think we all saved our lists."

That's when the teacher finally sat down and cried. She cried for Mark and for all his friends who would never see him again.

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The density of people in society is so thick that we forget that life will end one day. And we don't know when that one day will be.

So please, tell the people you love and care for, that they are special and important. Tell them, before it is too late..

My Heart Beats For You

               I was wondering how to celebrate a valentines with a special someone, could I prepare to choose a beautiful blooming flower, look for a chocolate that it is not too sweet and what simple note to put in a special cards. What to wear on the day of valentines and what perfume will I put on.  Geez for sure the pressure will fall upon me.  And the expectation that I need to meet from her. 

               There are so many preparation to make just to fit in in just one perfect moment. And for sure you want to make all the things goes well base in what you have planned, again just to fit in in one perfect moment.

               No date this valentine doesn't make you look pathetic and cast out.  People having a special someone to celebrate on the Valentine's Day doesn't mean they have the perfect relationship and they are the most happy partners in the whole world. Yours is yet to come in a unexpected way and in a most meaningful moment. It's worth the wait for sure.

               I find no wrong in celebrating a valentines day,  this month when we are bombared with  the commercialism of Valentine's Day, take a minute and think about on where and whom your heart really beats.  Wouldn't be much better gift you could give to the author of love who is Jesus instead of a box of chocolate and a expensive flower why not give spend an intimate time alone with Him.

               I am praying that every beats of  heart is for Jesus and I want to feel Him inside my heart.

               Today, step out and show others what real love is.  Every act of kindness is a seed that will produce a harvest in your own life in return.  Let your love be in word and in action and watch how Jesus pours out His blessing in ever area of your life.

               My Jesus, my heart beats for you. I love you with all my heart and with full of passion, You to me are everything, my love, my best friend, my life and my future.

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Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love.

1 John 4:8

Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good.

Romans 12:9

And now these three remain: faith, hope, and love, But the greatest of these is love.

1 Corinthians 13:13

Judging a person doesn't define who they are. It defines who you are.

               Naka upo ako sa isang waiting area sa Ospital habang nag hihintay na matawag ang pangalan ko para mag pa check up ng mata. Madaming tao akong nakikita, palakad lakad, tatayo, uupo, nag babasa ng dyaryo , umiinom ng kape, nag kakalikot ng celllphone, may nagkukuwentuhan, nag tatawanan at may nag iisa lang (madalas akong mag isa sa lahat ng lakad) hindi dahil sa wala akong kaibigan, mas gusto ko lang talagang mag isa madalas.

               Ilang beses na ba tayong na husgahan ng ibang tao dahil sa uri ng ating pananamit, pagsasalita, kilos at direksyon sa buhay, sa musika na pinapakinggan mo,kung anong hitsura mo, kung paano ka makitungo sa ibang tao, kung sino ang mag sinasamahan mong grupo ng tao sa bagay ganun din naman tayo madali nating husgahan ang isang tao batay sa nakikita lamang natin.

               Masakit mahusgahan ka ng ibang tao batay lamang sa kanilang pamantayan, at sigurado eto ang sasabihin mo "OK lang di naman totoo" pero deep in side masakit parin ang mahusgahan ng hindi totoo, apektado ka parin kahit papaano.

               Sinasabi sayo ng mga tao na maging totoo ka "be yourself" pero sa kabila ng pagpapakatotoo mo huhusgahan ka naman nila napaka ironic.  Kahit ako mismo dumadating sa puntong nanghuhusga ng isang tao base lamang sa nakikita ko, alam ko mali. Pero naiisip ko judging a person doesn't define who they are.  It defines who you are. Tama hindi ba?  


               Bawat isa sa atin may mga sekreto na hindi masabi kahit gustong ng sabihin.  Bawat

Life As A Palm Tree

"The righteous shall flourish like a palm tree..."(Psalm 92:12, NKJ)


         Have you ever seen a palm tree in the midst of a great storm? That tree may be bent so far over that it's almost touching the ground, but when the wind finally stops, that palm tree bounces right back up.  What's interesting is that while that palm tree is hunched over under the pressure of the storm, it is actually growing stronger?


         The reason God said we'd flourish like a palm tree is because He knew there would be difficult times.  He knew things would come against us to try to seal our joy and victory.  God said, "You're going to be like a palm tree because when the storms of life blow, you are going to come right back up stronger than before.  "Nothing can hold you back! No weapon formed against you will proper.


        As you reflect on the events over the last year, remember, the storms you have encountered have only made you stronger.  You are wiser, you are more alive, and you are headed for victory.  You're brighter days are right out in front of you!


Always remember that with God on your side, nothing can hold you back!

Life

          Life isn’t about keeping score. It’s not about how many people call you and it’s not about who you’ve dated, are dated, or haven’t dated at all. It isn’t about who you’ve kissed, what sport you play, or which guy or girl likes you.


          It’s not about your shoes or your hair or the color of your skin or where you live or where you go to school. In fact it’s not about grades, money, clothes or colleges that accept you or not. Life isn’t about if you have lots of friends, or if you are alone, and it’s not about how accepted or unaccepted you are. Life just isn’t about that.


         But life is about who you love and who you hurt. It’s about how you feel about yourself. It’s about trust, happiness and compassion. It’s about sticking up for your friends and replacing inner hate with love.


         Life is about avoiding jealousy, overcoming ignorance, and buidling confidence. It’s about what you say and what you mean. Its about seeing people for who they are and not what they have.


          Most of all, it is about choosing to use your life to touch someone else’s in a way that could never have been achieved otherwise. That is why the good Lord placed us here on this beautiful earth. These choices are what life’s about.”

Digital Mask

          "To be nobody but yourself, in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else, means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight; and never stop fighting." E.E. Cummings

            It can take a lifetime to figure out who you really are, but a good test is to see how you act and who you become when no one else is around. How are people influencing who you are?

So true. How are we acting when there are other people around compared to when we're alone? Shouldn't we be the same person through and through? 

Sometimes we tend to be a people pleaser, acting like we are good enough in the sight of others.

I've been hiding, hiding for so long right behind my digital mask
I've been trying to be someone I'm not
All these perfectly fake people push us to insane ideals
They're nothing more than counterfeit images

                                      Kutless: Beyond The Surface

The drive that cause people to be who they don't want to be is the mentality of "pleasing-others" as the primary purpose of life.   People lose their true identity and are living a deceptive mask of who others want them to be. We should stop the pretending business and be who you are, a rich, blessed, hopeful, and full-of-love being that God created and redeemed out of his abounding, everlasting love for us.

Let us be true to ourselves, Being true to ourselves is one of the greatest feelings that you’ll feel.  God is right there to accept who we are and what capabilities we have.

Don't give up in to everything the world around tells you to be.  Open up your mind release yourself.  Stop the lying, stop comparing who you are to what you see.  Never let fear hold back you to change.

Expecting too much

Sometimes we expect things too much out of man (or woman). Expecting too much out of this world.

And most of the time when we do, we eventually get disappointed because everything is not the way we wanted it to be.

This is why we should leave everything up to God and we should know that He will give the BEST for us. Because we know that His love for us is so great.

Why should we expect things from this world when we know that it’s going to backfire?

When we put everything in God’s hands, put our worries and desires, put our faith and trust - there will be less disappointments in our lives because God will never disappoint us.

God will give us peace. Hope. Love.

“The Lord is good, A stronghold in the day of trouble; And He knows those who trust in Him” (Nahum 1:7).

Sometimes we think we know what’s best for us. Maybe even push through so many things like yelling at our parents that they don’t understand! That your relationship with someone (like a boyfriend or girlfriend) is meant to be, and you don’t care what they think.

We usually don’t care what others think because we just want happiness, wanting to satisfy our worldly needs.

But.

That happiness won’t last. Whatever it is you’re going through - whether it is a relationship, a struggle with a job, school or study, family troubles, etc - leave it up to God and do not expect more out of your self. Do not rely on your own choices, nor other man (or woman) before consulting it unto God.

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths” (Proverbs 3:5,6).

Life

1.     Marry the right person. This one decision will determine 90% of your happiness or misery.

2.     Work at something you enjoy and that’s worthy of your time and talent.
3.     Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.
4.     Become the most positive and enthusiastic person you know.
5.     Be forgiving of yourself and others.
6.     Be generous.
7.     Have a grateful heart.
8.     Persistence, persistence, persistence.
9.     Discipline yourself to save money on even the most modest salary.
10.  Treat everyone you meet like you want to be treated.
11.  Commit yourself to constant improvement.
12.  Commit yourself to quality.
13.  Understand that happiness is not based on possessions, power or prestige, but on relationship with people you love and respect.
14.  Be loyal.
15.  Be honest.
16.  Be a self-starter.
17.  Be decisive even it it means you’ll sometimes be wrong.
18.  Stop blaming others. Take responsibility for every area of your life.
19.  Be bold and courageous. When you look back on your life, you’ll regret the things you didn’t do more than the ones you did.
20.  Take good care of those you love.
21.  Don’t do anything that wouldn’t make your Mom proud.